Jesus taught me a few things when Tony was sick a few weeks ago.

I was really afraid the night that I had to take Tony to the ER. We were both really scared that the Cat-Scan or MRI were going to show up something serious. As I stood there watching Tony lie there in the hospital bed completely helpless and in pain, I began to think about how as a younger person I have always spent my life thinking we will be these little old people one day with gray hair sitting enjoying each other. I realized at that moment our lives could change forever. Our whole life could have been flipped around in that instant. It was very fearful, and all I could do was talk to Jesus and try to comfort Tony while he was in pain and sick. At that moment you realize what really matters most. Nothing in this world mattered, and when it really comes down to it........ all that is really important is Jesus and LIFE in Him! All the other stuff doesn't really mean anything. We should be thankful for our materiel circumstances, but they are not the substance that matters. You also realize in those moments of why we don't want regrets.

We were soooo thankful when the doctor came in and said that everything looked good on the test and we could go home. Whew! That was such a relief and I knew that Jesus was answering some prayers. At that moment I seen it as another opportunity to do righteousness. Another chance to to good for others and to strive to live even more like Jesus. Jesus truly is Giver of Life! :-)

It really touched my soul when I watched and listened to Tony singing his songs from the Lord in our recent NT gathering. Just too see him so sick and then to watch my husband so happy, thankful, and full of life. Man! That is worth something! :-) To have such a happy companion who loves God, and was well enough to still sing. Whew! You realize how much you miss hearing those songs around the house until you don't hear them for a few days.

I am also thankful for our wonderful family. I know that without my sister in the Lord being with me that night it would have been even more fearful. She was right by our side, and that means more to me than she will ever know. I never knew that you could have a life like this and a family to love.

Have you ever had the feeling that you are exactly where God wants you, and doing the exact thing you are supposed to be doing? That was the feeling I had this past weekend.

Tony and I took a short weekend trip to Gatlinburg, TN, and the Great Smokey Mountains. I have to say that it was one of the best trip's of my life. For some reason for weeks now we just kept feeling that this trip was truly planned by God. We didn't know what was in store.

It seems like everywhere I looked there was God teaching me something. I learned a lot about the Love of God for His people this weekend, as well as many other valuable lessons.

Seeing creation was one of my main highlight's. The beauty I was being allowed to behold was amazing. When you see nature you must believe that there is a power that is way bigger than any of us. I learned that I LOVE life this weekend. All the "man made" things on this earth could not satisfy my soul this weekend. I loved learning more about my Creator.

Another one of my highlight's was meeting a very sweet older couple while we were up on the mountain in Cade's Cove. After a brief conversation we found out that the gentleman had grew up on a farm in GA and had the holy Ghost. We had the best fellowship standing there talking with him and his wife. Just sharing experiences and hearing their testimonies, and we even sang a song. It was priceless and worth my whole trip to experience that one hour with those sweet people. After we departed from them Tony and I both felt very thankful and excited to have met them, but both were sad. It was a wide open door of the love of God for each other until doctrine came up. It was still sweet after doctrine came up, but the wall was there. The thing that divides God's people. You knew that any testimony told could not 100% penetrate the heart at that point. It does something to your heart when you meet one of God's wandering people. They are out there, and they need God. They need us to do our part. It doesn't have to be this way. They need to know that they don't have to settle for second best. Oh, how I wish I could have picked them up and took them home with me!!! I sure hope they felt the love of God from us. I felt completely helpless after meeting them. It is up to God to open the door.

It makes you so very thankful when you see where God has brought you from. He didn't have to do it, but I am sure thankful He did! :-) I can see now why it is so very important to have your own experiences with God. If we have our own testimony of Jesus speaking to us then we have something to offer someone. Gold nuggets!!! We are not just living on someone else's bread when we have our own experience. If Jesus had not given me my own experience of being dissatisfied and hungry before coming to the truth I would not be here today. I learned this weekend that is how you know who around you has heard from God and who has not. By the Spirit's testimony.

I sure wish I could tell it the way I feel it!

I know a lot of people here me talk about my grandma quite often. I was sitting here wondering how many people know to history as to why I am so crazy about mam-ma. So, I decided to write about it.

Grandma was the shining star in my life when I was little. I just loved to go see grandpa and grandma every opportunity I could. I spent countless nights in their home (even though I would get homesick, hehe!). We laughed and played..... When I cried and pouted I sometimes got mam-mas tough love. I would wash dishes and was so excited to get a whole dollar! :-) We would eat bologna sandwiches, or ballpark hot dogs. Those were the days!!! Sometimes grandma would come and get me on Fridays when I got a little older. We would go get her hair done, go to the grocery, and get a hamburger.

Seasons change and life moves on...... I quickly became a teenager, and the things that used to mean the most to me just slowly didn't fit into my world any longer. My priorities changed, and I found myself spending less time with grandma. When you are young you think that everything stays the same. But, then you look up you realize that time has moved on. Nothing ever stays the same. I always thought grandma would be there sitting in her house waiting for me.

Tony and I met when I was 17, Fall 2000. When we meet my priorities changed again. I found myself no longer wanting to do some of the things I did before we meet. Life had a little bit more meaning to it. However, I was still lonely, miserable, and trying to find myself. I remember taking Tony over to meet grandma a few times.

Early 2001 before Jesus touched me, grandma got sick. She was so bad off that it was decided to put her in the nursing home. We thought she was not going to pull through. I was heartbroke. So many years wasted. All these regrets and now grandma is going to go away? I remember those times of going to visit with her. She looked so frail and pitiful. She would not talk, eat, or get out of bed. I would go visit her and try to make up for lost time, but I still had so many "shoulda coulda woulda's"

Summer 2001 Jesus touched me. He gave me a new life. It was worth living. I had hope, and was happy!!! I could now live a life for other people that was empty of regrets if I followed the Spirit of God. Somewhere during this time I remember talking to the Lord about mam-ma and praying for her. I remember praying and asking God if He would give me a second chance with grandma. That He would let her live, so I could finally spend the time with her that I had lost. I missed her, and didn't want regrets. Well, guess what happened? Grandma got better!!!! Thank you Jesus! She became a totally different person. She still had to live in the nursing home, but she was content and made the most out of her time.

I have made double time with mam-ma in the past 6 years. I have thoroughly made the most of my times with her, and have very much enjoyed her. She has enjoyed our visits as well. She is a lovely grandma to have. I have told her about the holy Ghost and some testimonies. I know she doesn't understand sometimes about the Spirit, but I know she loves what she feels. I wouldn't trade my memories and times with grandma. They have helped me grow and have made me learn to appreciate everything and everyone around me.

I am so very thankful that Jesus has given me this second chance with mam-ma. She will be 88 (I think ;-) ) in April. And to see that beautiful smile on her face that I know Jesus put there is enough to keep me going back to see her. I hope that before she goes away, Jesus will fill her with the holy Ghost. That is my hearts desire.

She is just my sweet "mam-ma" to me, and that is why I love her.

Tony and I were talking tonight at dinner. He was telling me about a man on the news that was released from prison after 3 decades. Because of new technology it was found that he was not guilty.

I could not imagine spending that many years in prison for something that deep inside my heart I knew 100% I did not do. But, all the evidence points that you are guilty. It is the perfect scenario and no matter what you say or do, you are guilty.

We live in a world that is nothing but temporal things. We need the holy Ghost to tell us what is right. To tell us what and who is honest and upright. Without the Spirit of God all we can do is believe a lie. If we follow after anything that is true it is only because of Jesus.

This scripture comes to mind:

2nd Cr 4:18: While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen [are] temporal; but the things which are not seen [are] eternal.

I am so glad that Jesus looks at the heart, and judges by things not seen. All the evidence would lead you to believe that Christianity is the right and holy way. Looks good, sounds good, makes good sense to the flesh. Just about any sect can prove to you that "their" belief is the right one, in their own words. But, what is the Spirit saying? What do you feel deep inside your soul? I have learned that it might be the perfect scenario, but Jesus may be saying, "No, this is the way! Come this way!" Do we trust the still small voice of the Spirit enough to know it is the only Truth?

I am learning not to look to what you see. Look to what you feel. Everything around us may be pointing one way, but the right way may be 100 miles the other way. Be willing to be wrong. Being wrong just might help us all find what is good, true, & right.

This week in our bible study we read the story of Ruth. Bro Billy asked us the question, "What is a virtuous women?" We had previously read the story of Ester so virtue had already been on my mind.

To me a virtuous women is beyond being godly. It seems like it is almost a reward or gift from God. Something that you cannot do yourself. A gift that only God gives. A reward for wholey (sp?) submitting yourself to the masters hand. It just seems like being virtuous goes above and beyond. It becomes you. No thought of self. No pride, no envy, just happy to serve others.

Ester and Ruth both were completely submissive to the Will of God for them. They were completely happy with whatever God gave them. They sure found a lot of favor in God's eyes. I pray that Jesus makes me as virtuous as possible.

We read this passage in Proverbs. It was so good to me!!! 

Proverbs 31:10-31

[10] Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
[11] The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
[12] She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
[13] She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
[14] She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
[15] She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
[16] She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
[17] She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
[18] She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
[19] She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
[20] She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
[21] She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
[22] She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
[23] Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
[24] She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
[25] Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
[26] She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
[27] She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
[28] Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
[29] Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
[30] Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
[31] Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

Sometimes I marvel at why we do not listen to the Spirits still small voice. We know it is always right. Always leading us the right way. I had a small experience with this today.

It was 5pm and I was logging out of my PC to go home. I normally have one particular way that I walk out of the building, however there are several ways to get to my exit out of the building. I heard that still small thought (sounded just the way it always does) saying..... "Walk out going toward entrance B." Me, being stubborn I say something like, "Why would I wanna go that way? I always go the other way. I don't need to go that way." The Spirit gave me the thought again to go that way. Again, I said, "I wanna go the other way because I always say goodnight to Stephanie (she is a really sweet friend of mine at work)." Well, the Spirit won..... I began to walk that way and to my surprise I turn to corner and there is guess who?!?! Stephanie standing at the copier. Well, what do you know? ha!

The copier was jammed up and she had been there trying to find the paper jam. I put my things down and we both began to hunt and peck for this paper jam. Now our copiers/printers are not that easy. They have tons of little hidden places..... paper could be hiding anywhere!!! We tried and tried and could not find it. The copier was telling us there was a jam in a particular area, but we could not even find that area. Finally after numerous times of trying to fix it ourselves, we decided to look at the copier screen to see what it was telling us to do. Now we use this copier everyday and it gets jammed ALL the time, and we have never noticed this before. We watch the screen and start to open the places it is showing us, as we open and close each space, the screen changed and it told us EXACTLY how to find what we were looking for. Problem solved. Copier was happy, so were we. :-)

I had to tell you all of that to tell you what Jesus taught me what I got home. The Spirit of God is the copier. It is always telling us step by step EXACTLY what to do, where to go. All we have to do is follow the directions, EXACTLY. We get in our carnal minds and try to figure it out ourselves. We will never figure it out. Jesus is always standing there with the sign saying, "This is the way!"

Have you ever been hurt by people and without really realizing it you just bury the memory of that person, and bury the hurt? I am sure you have. I have been doing this, and did not even know it until God showed me this week. I also realized with the help of Jesus this week, that I can still love those people who have hurt me. I can love them in the love of God.

This week the Lord let me feel so much compassion toward someone who is no longer in my life. He allowed me to pray for them. It broke my heart to see them in the situation and condition that they are in. I know that without Jesus being long suffering and still having mercy on my life, I would be just as helpless as they are. The only difference between me and anyone is the mercy from God. I really felt that this week.

Today I was driving to a doctor's appointment and I seen someone who is no longer in my life. I was sitting at a red light and the person in the car in front of me kept waving. After some time had went by I realized who this women was. I wanted to wave back, but it was raining and I never could catch up with her. I was listening to Lift Him High, and I just prayed for her. It is so sad to see someone just give up such a wonderful blessing from God. I was turning into the doctor's parking lot and I was praying, "God don't let me hurt my (future) children or my family in God. Don't let me be a bad example or testimony." I was thinking about how I don't want to be a stumbling block to my brothers and sisters. The Spirit brought back the sweetest thought "You are only a stumbling block if you never get back up!" Amen God! It gave me hope for the person I seen today. Hope that if they ever get back up, Jesus will restore them and they will have a testimony. I always want to look to Jesus when I fall so He can help me back up. A child never learns to walk unless they get back up after they fall.

I have learned this week that love comes in many different ways. The love I feel for my fallen brothers and sisters never changed. It is still there, it is just a different kind of love now. A more compassionate, firm, stern, oh I wish you would obey God kind of love. You know what I mean? Sometimes God's love is gentle, sometimes hard, sometimes correcting, but it is always perfect and right. God is God. His love is always in a right Spirit. A right Spirit is all that God has. He is the right Spirit. :-)

I really wish I could get this out the way I felt it. It sure was a real good experience to have in the midst of everything right now.

He truly is the lifter up of our heads.

I wanted to write out some of what I learned from the Spirit this past Thanksgiving.

Before we went on our trip to NC, I was just thinking about different things and talking to the Lord. I got to thinking about fellowship and how much my heart missed everyone there. What is fellowship, where is fellowship? I thought about how our fellowship isn't with a meeting. We can have fellowship in a meeting, but where is true fellowship? Fellowship is in the heart's of God's people. It is something you share with one another, something you can feel. Sure you can see the brethren breaking bread in a gathering, but a gathering is not what makes us who we are in the Lord. So, the more Jesus gave me those sweet thought's, the more I wanted to see everyone.

I am very glad that I got to spend Thanksgiving with my family in Carolina. We left for our trip on Tuesday, and by the time we got there we found out that some folks were going to L'ville to visit Sheila, who was doing very poorly health wise. Of course your first initial feeling is, "Oh, people are going to KY, maybe we should drive back!" Which is not a bad thought. But the better thought is, "Oh, Lord, where is my place? Where do you want me to be this weekend?" Tony and I prayed and talked about it, and after a while we just felt settled in the Spirit to stay put. I am so glad that we did.

It was good for me to be with everyone and feel the soberness and realness of God right now. I felt some of that here in KY, but not to the extent that I felt there. I don't think I could feel or understand some things that the Lord is doing now, if I hadn't of went.

It was good to get around and visit, encourage, be encouraged. It was just a real, sober, sweet visit. Times like these, and feelings like we are feeling in the Spirit make you value life. They make you humble yourself to love and to be loved.

Psalm 91-2

I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

This is just one little short piece of my testimony. Tony and I got to talking about it tonight, and I wanted to write it.

It was 2001 and we were still attending the Baptist church. We attended a Sunday service where some young folks were being water baptized. Tony wanted to play a song for the ones being water baptized, but the "pastor" said it wasn't a good idea. This was the day when the Spirit of God told Tony to leave it all behind. You can read more of his testimony regarding this at: http://www.pastorjohnshouse.com/ellis.htm.

I look back and I can remember Tony telling me after that experience with the pastor that we were leaving the Baptist church. I remember feeling confused and saying, "But, where will we go?" He reassured me that it was OK, and that we would find somewhere to go.

Somewhere in this time frame Tony meet Bro Billy who told him about the holy Ghost and gave him Bro Darren's CD.

For some reason we went back to the Baptist church that Wed night. If my memory serves me right, I wanted to go back one last time. This night we took two acquaintances that we had meet. I remember feeling so awkward being there. So out of place, unwanted, etc... I remember also having the thought as well about know one even coming up and hugging. After that night we went to the parking lot, and Tony put in Bro Darren's CD and listened to it with the two gentleman that we had took with us. We couldn't understand any of the words. They sounded so muffled.

We never went back after that night. I know now that I had to go back that one last time. Tony had already had his own experience with God, but I needed mine. I needed to feel dissatisfied so that I would trust Jesus and trust Tony (who was a few years later going to be my husband). I didn't know at the time that what I was feeling was God calling me out, but I know now that is exactly what he was doing.

I am so glad that Jesus brought us out of doubt. I don't never have to be afraid to hear from Jesus again.

Since Tony doesn't have a site, he said I could post his new song on my blog. YAY! Hopefully we can post the testimony behind it.

When my Anointing Came Down

Tony Ellis

10-14-07

Verse 1

Do you remember all the times, you thought differently in your mind

You could not enjoy the things sinners could

You knew you did not belong, in all those places that felt wrong

I put it in your heart to sing a different song

Chorus

When my Anointing comes down

On My precious little child

And you feel all the love I have for you

In your heart you heard My call, above them all

Then I took up My abode in your soul

When my Anointing came down

Verse 2

I heard every word that you said from the first day

I heard every prayer that you prayed

I saw every tear you cried, you didn’t know I was close by

I took care of you every time, because you were always mine

I could not stand by

Chorus

Verse 3

All the time that’s passing by, you feel closer, so do I

The more control you give to me of your life

You keep learning more of Me, when you spend time down on your knees

I give you my answer and the victory

Chorus

This is a TFE that I was working on for Damien today. It was too good to my soul for me not to share.

Thought for the Evening

This past weekend Tony and I decided just to stay home, and get things done around the house. That sounded like such a great idea to me. I just wanted enjoy life and enjoy being home. On Sunday afternoon I wanted to get out my fall/winter clothes and get that all ready to go. Tony was doing his little handyman jobs that he wanted to do, and I got into one of my "purging" moods and just started reorganizing, making a GoodWill pile, etc... It felt so good, just to get rid of stuff that we didn't need. It also felt good to take care of the things that Jesus has given us. Showing Him that we value them, by keeping them clean, keeping the house neat, etc. So, during my cleaning spree I found some shoe boxes full of old cassette tapes from the gatherings. My goal was to get a lot of this stuff condensed and put into my closet, and out from under the second bedroom bed. There were soooo many tapes. I didn't really know what to do with them. Someone had mentioned to maybe give them to the GoodWill, but they are full of so many memories. I found a box and decided to take all the tapes and put them into one box. It was so sweet as I begun to do this. I would stop and read the titles. I just kept thinking or saying, "Oh, I remember that! That is so good", etc. Then it hit me, "Look at all this food we have been given! If there was ever a famine, we would have plenty of food." We are rich! Look at all the teaching Jesus has given. All the Thought's, Books, Music, CD's, on and on... We are rich. It just hit me as I was typing, "We are in a famine." God's people as a whole body are in a spiritual famine. They need the food that we have. We haven't been given this just for ourselves. It is all for His people. We are workers, and thank Jesus for giving us the goods to produce good fruit.

That is so good to me!

Hey there! Long time no here from me! :-) I haven't wrote on here in so long. I just wanted to say that I have not forgot you all!!! Things have been super busy for me lately. Work has been soooo busy. Just doing everyday things. Jesus has been doing some things for Tony & I. (More details on that to come) Pastor John was here last week. That was a really sweet time. I really enjoyed my time with he & Aunt Barbara. I love my sweet family.

I am getting ready to go relax for the evening. I just wanted to write.

Well, more to come! Talk to you soon.

I was at a beach house at the ocean. The only people that I remember seeing in the dream where Tim & little Jonathan. I wanted to see out the door at the ocean, and see where the tide was. We were on the bottom level of the house, so I couldn't see outside. All I could see were what looked to be boat's and people out there. So, I hopped up on some furniture to see outside. When I looked out toward the ocean I could see a bunch of rough waves. I have never seen so many waves in real life. They were coming really fast and were big. I looked to see where the tide was at, and it was coming all the way up to the back of the beach house. I knew that is not normal for the tide to usually so that. The next thing I remember was the tide came up so much that it took the house and we started floating down this little river type thing that the wave made. I remember some people floating past us. We weren't injured however, and I don't remember anything else that happened.

When I woke up I got to thinking about this dream. I was just thinking on everything that we have seen the Lord doing lately. How the cleansing to make us a Holy people has came in Tsunami waves. Some larger than others. I was doing laundry yesterday morning, and was thinking, "OK, what does the tide bring up in the ocean when it come"? The tide brings up some of the most beautiful treasures from the ocean, when the tide goes back out. Sometimes the tide will bring up "junk" that the ocean doesn't want. The tide does many different things. This reminds me of the Spirit. Times like the ones that we are seeing now, are what God uses to give us the most wonderful and victorious testimonies. They also get rid of the "junk", so that we can live normal Spirit filled lives. We need these times. No matter how hurtful or trying they may seem, GOD IS RIGHT. There are testimonies just waiting for the taking. God is wanting us all to step up, and be in our rightful place.

I remember when Jesus turned the faucet wide open on me back in 2004, when we moved for a short time to NC. It was the most trying thing I have ever been through, but I couldn't be more thankful for it. I got some of the most beautiful treasures from that experience. PS- Hopefully soon I can write out my testimony about that experience.

God is faithful! When we are faithful how can He be anything but Good?!?! He is GOOD!

When I first took the job that I have now, I was very nervous. While I was at work one day when I very first begun my new job, I was starting to feel overwhelmed, and went in the bathroom and started praying to Jesus. During this time I heard this thought that was sooo sweet (I believe it was the Spirit. It gently said, "In this new job I am going to teach you to overcome the world." I believed that thought. And ever since that day I don't remember questioning again whether or not I made the right choice about taking the job or not.

Jesus has been very sweet to me. I have had a few experiences where He has stepped in and shown me how to do something. There also have been times when I would start to feel overwhelmed because I didn't understand, and He would send my co-worker to explain it to me.

I had a really busy, yet GREAT day today! I listened to my music most of the day, and just got lost in the wonderful feelings. A lot has been going on, and we all are really swamped so I just try to keep my mind on Jesus during the day.

I had a deadline that I needed to make today in order to make my performance goals on that particular function. I had been working on trying to balance this account since yesterday, and I was just completely at a loss. Another co-worker had tried to help me, and she couldn't figure it out either. My boss was supposed to get with me today and see if she could help me. That didn't happen because she just had too much going on. I know now Jesus set me up. I decided to work over to try and get some things caught up. Before I left I decided to pull that account back out and try to balance it one more time (This is not just balancing a checking account, this is a General Ledger account. Two different world's, so it is much more complex) I said, "Jesus, please help me find it this time." Oh Boy! I got to looking at my paperwork, and begun to look things over, and Jesus led me right to it! He put the thought right in my mind as to what I was looking for! I love it when He does that! I was soooo excited. I was leaping for joy inside.

He gave me confidence in Him, and He meet my deadline for me! Yay Jesus! He is always faithful and true.

I am very glad that my boss didn't have time to help me today, because Jesus took His opportunity to come in and show me. :-)

Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is  faithful that promised;) ~Hebrews 10:23

A dream I had last night. I will try to remember as much as possible.

Another family came to live with Tony and I. They didn't quite do things the way that Tony and I do them, (shut lights out, etc). I walked into a room and a light bulb had blown. This was not the first time that a light bulb had blown since our new house guest came. I knew that it had blown because of the lights being left on. I could tell this because the light switch was still up. The dream continued on.... like this, and there were a few other scenes of things not being taken care of like they should be. Next we were getting ready to all go to NC. We were all leaving at 3pm promptly. Usually in real life I am for the most part really organized, and like to be on time. For some reason in the dream, I didn't get us packed the night before. The day came to leave, and I had to pack that day. Again I just took my time and we didn't really pack. Before we knew it, I remember it being time to go in the dream. I was trying to rush and get packed. My clothes were not washed, my bag wasn't organized, and before we knew it, it was 8pm before we got on the road. There were other part's to the dream, but these are the part's that stand out the most to me.

What I learned from the dream.

The dream was about valuing. The people in my dream did not value what they had enough to clean up, conserve, or whatever it may have been. I didn't value or respect the other people or their time in my dream. Jesus was showing me how important it is for us to be on time, and be prepared for everything. How can ever be a light to anyone if we are not ever prepared?

I was thankful that Jesus gave me a dream to wake up to this morning. It was a good feeling. It just made me want to be prepared, be on time, and value the people around me. Just to simply & normally LOVE LIFE!

It was still dark outside, and it was about 6:30 in the morning. I must have slept through Tony getting ready for work, because I don’t remember hearing him. Something was different this morning when I woke up. I was in pain. My whole abdomen was hurting. I got up and tried to move around, and it just hurt. It was painful to even walk. I was home alone, and I did not know what was happening. I really started to get fearful. I have been on antibiotics for an infection, and I didn’t know if I was having a reaction, or if something else was wrong. I went and lied on the bed real still for a while, and I started praying in the Spirit to Jesus. I didn’t want to have to call Tony at work, but I was hurting so bad, I didn’t know what else to do. It was not subsiding. I called Tony, and he was going to come home and check on me, and take me to the doctor. I really felt bad because he had to leave work. I still continued to pray to Jesus. Guess what?!?!? By the time Tony got to the house, I was lying in the bed resting pain free! He took the pain. I know it was Jesus. Only Jesus can take pain like that away. I still felt bad that Tony had to come all the way home, for nothing, but Jesus used the situation to show me something.

I had someone to call when I was hurting. Jesus was right there waiting for me to call. Not only has He given me His Spirit, but He has given me a husband who is Godly, and has such zeal for the things of God. I was lying there in that bed thinking about how thankful I am that Jesus gave me a sweet husband, and that I am not alone. Jesus really knows how to make you appreciate the things He has given to you. It is no small thing what Jesus has done in our lives. Just to know where it all came from, is not worth trading. Most people I have meet in my life don't even understand that much truth. And just to think, that He has condescended down to us humans to share His knowledge! WOW, This life is no small thing.

I told Tony when he was going back to work, “Just tell them Jesus touched me!”

I was able to get ready and go to work! I was able to listen to Bro Tim’s testimony this morning about being healed. I was able to listen to those sweet old songs that remind me of when Jesus first touched me! Whew Praise God!  I am just able today! Only are we able because of the mighty hand of Jesus.

That reminds me of a song from Tony that says, "I am able, to set this table, I'm not lacking anything!"

I was praying while in a gathering with the Saint's, in NC on 9-1-07. The Spirit of God was falling so strongly all around the room. The Lord was pouring out many beautiful blessings. The Spirit was all over my body as I was talking to Jesus, and reflecting on Aunt Natalie's testimony about being normal, and reflecting on what Pastor John had been saying. Pastor John was singing the song, "I've found the way!" All of the sudden the Spirit gave me a sweet thought. "This is not just a way of life, THIS IS LIFE!" Whew! That felt sooo good. Just to hear from the Spirit and to feel the Power of God flowing all over your body. It is a blessing to gather with the Saint's of God. What Jesus has offered us is not just another way of life, IT IS THE LIFE. It is the only life that is going to bring us up out of the grave! yay! It is valuable to hear from the Lord. I am thankful for my visit with the Saint's this weekend. I pray to become/stay valuable and let Jesus us me. Oh, Jesus let me occupy my place.